What is wrong with me. Seriously what the hell is wrong with me.
I have a boyfriend. We have ups and downs but at the end of the day he mostly makes me happy. I like being with someone. I don't do 'alone'. I love him.
So why the hell am I flirting with this other guy. I met him when I was out, he found me on facebook and we starting talking and he is a major flirt. Like he is full on. He was like you're beautiful.. meeting you again would be dangerous.. ah and he's a rugby player and that's hot.
So why am i flirting back with him? why am i meeting him again on friday?!
I love my boyfriend. We was cuddling last night and I should of felt bad but I didnt..
I am an attention whore.
I like to feel wanted. Sexually wanted.
But its not real. I repulse guys. I'm lucky to have my boyfriend who tolerates my fatness, most other guys just chat to me for a laugh, poor little dumpy girl in frumpy clothes. Why is this other guy showing interest. He's only taking the piss. He'll get with my friend come friday.
Ah I hate myself.
I'm so fucking fat.
500cals today
sorry for rant.. needed to get it out.
