10th August

Completed 2468 cycle.. lost 6lbs but then ATE like a motherfucker. I haven't weighed.. too scared.. scared of the scales how pathetic.. scared of the truth more like.



ups and downs this weekend..



-ups -

-lying in bed my boyfriend had has hand on my hip, says 'i can really feel your hip bones, they make a good hand rest' :)

- getting to my GW1

- buying a bra with a smaller back size

- getting completely wasted laughing til I cried with my friends

- old school friend coming on to me, getting attention from guys whilst out.



-downs -

- my mum always making me feel shit before i go out, comments range from 'i can see your back fat' to 'you dont have the legs to wear a skirt that short'

- eating out three days in a row and feeling like a total fat obese ugly failure

- me saying i wasn't much of a cake person.. my mum replying 'could of fooled me you look it'. Bitch.

- depseratly trying to purge and failing leaving me with a horrendous tummy ache and puffy face.

-no longer being at GW1

I'm currently doing another more extended cycle of 2468 :-)

4th August

Let me be your fantasy

Day 3 of 2468 cycle

Not going to lie.. yesterday was hard. My hungriest day by far. But I stayed strong, weighed this morning and i've lost 4.5lbs since monday. Happy days.

I went to yoga class about an hour ago.. I figured the more calories the more exercise.. but it's left me feeling quite weak at the moment and abit light headed.

Today 600cals :D already had angel delight (91cals) and chicken salad with cheese (200cals). Not sure how I will use the other 300cals, might get a packet of sweets if I go cinema later, or maybe soup and a piece of bread or sushi. Oh the possibilites :-P Only water today for drink as I've had too much diet coke this week and I'm scared of getting another bladder infection.

Wondering what to do after I finish the cycle.. whether I will do another cycle of have rest for a day or so. I'm so scared of gaining it all back.

2nd August

Fat butterflies can't fly

I'm doing the 2468 diet from today... I've gained from the weekend but what did i expect, i drank, ate pizza and creamy pasta. I'm fed up of this shit, I go on holiday in 24 days. Fuck.


so 200cals today.. will be hard considering I had a weekend of binge. I've already planned what I can have today.. soup (50cals) 1 rice cracker (20cals) options hot chocolate (30cals) angel delight (96cals) Diet coke (3cals) = 200cals


I'm not weighing myself until the end of the cycle. I want to loose between 5 and 7lbs, anything more of course would be amazing but perhaps not realistic.