His eyes see right into my soul.

ohhhh what to do what to do.

confused. com

My friend has invited me to her house tonight for movies / pizza but the problem is..

I'm 1 lb away from GW1

It took me SO long to get there and I don't want to mess it up. I'm so close, yet so far! I really want to have a chilled girlie night. But I want to get to my goal weight, I seriously can't afford to gain as I go on holiday in a week! I'd like to loose at least another 5lbs by then as unrealistic as that may sound.

Going and not eating pizza is not an option.. its me we're talking about.. pizza is my downfall.

the pizza I like is 1500cals.. and i'm not going to loose eating that am i?

Ugh I hate compromising my social life for my weight loss goals.

growl.

30th July

I think we have an emergancy

I'm actually shocked.

Last night I went into binge mode. I don't know what started it. It wasn't planned. It was kinda a healthy binge as my mum only buys healthy food.. but it was still a binge. It started with a slice of dry rye bread in cream cheese but I couldn't stop I had four..then two yougrts (127each) noodles (245) two lollys (56each) two pieces of toast with marmite and BUTER, and this was all consumed in like less than half an hour. I was even contemplating driving to an all night tescos 15mins away for a munch.

Fatty

But weighed this morning.. and I've lost half a lb. I'm shocked. Seriously how the fuck did that happen. In total I must of consumed well over 1000cals and lots of fat.

confused.com

It's given me motavation to be strong this weekend and to aim for 500-800cals a day. My best friend is staying for the weekend with this guy she's kind of seeing and my boyfriend, so I will have to eat.. and drink will be involed. Bottles of wine. Kind of excited..

I miss being drunk.